15 days left!?!??!

oh boy! 15 days left!!!! that number is so insanely small. it makes me SO excited, yet terrified at the same time. I got my shots yesterday, all by myself & didn't cry!! I just had to keep in mind why I was getting the shots & i was fine! It's so crazy to think that in 15 days I will be getting on a plane, flying 18 hours to a different country, then driving 6 hours into the jungle to stay there for 4 weeks! No hot water, no electricity, no warm beds, nothing!! But I somehow get really excited when I think about those things. I know I'm going to get tested constantly & I'm always going to have to be putting in 120% every hour of the day. I know there are going to be times when I get homesick and will crave simple things like french fries and a warm house. But i've been working on staying focused on why I'm going. I'm not going so I can check it off a list of experiences, i'm not going so I can have some crazy adventure, I'm going because these villagers need to know about God. They need to know that there are people all over the world who love them & are constantly praying for them & above all they need to know that there's someone who created them & He knows every detail about them & still loves them unconditionally. What an amazing message I get to go share!!!! I get to not only share this amazing message but I get to simply love these villagers and embrace our time together & build relationships. I get the privilege of being involved in building a medical clinic... a place they can now take their sick children, a place that offers help, hope & love. I can't wait to wake up in the morning freezing & being able to walk outside of my hut and gather around the fire with the villagers, I can't wait to show my hut family pictures of my family at home, I can't wait to look at a bowl of food & realize that I somehow need to finish a bowl of the nastiest looking thing i've ever seen. All of these little details make me so excited & so nervous at the same time. But God is strong & He has plans & I can't wait to be a part of this whole thing! &  I can't wait til I can come home & share with you guys!!!!